My Life’s Despair

My Life’s Despair was conceived in 1994 by Larshus. His primary instrument is drums. After spending a year playing drums with the melodic death metal band Mourning and the eventual demise of the band, he had decided to continue on in the same vane as Mourning and started to learn other instruments to record as a solo project.

Larshus continued to play drums and tour with numerous other bands for the next 10 plus years.

Mourning 1994 (Melodic Death Metal)
Autumn’s End 1995 (Black Metal)
Tri-Lambda 1996 (Joke Power-pop)
The Secular 1996 – 2000 (Gothic Industrial)
Down In The Lab – 2000 – 2004 (Electro Gothic Rock)

In 1995, the demo Autumns End was released on cassette.
1. Blackness in Binary
2. Cold Winds of Love
3. Dark Skies
4. Rain of Depression

The second demo in 1997, Tears of Light, was once again, only released on cassette. This was a straight forward submission of doom metal.

1. She is Haunting Me
2. Bitter Love
3. I Bleed For You
4. Never Wanted to Let You Go
5. Always
6. Is it You?

In 2001, a single song demo was released.

1. Agony Under the Dark Sky

In 2009 the EP, Love, Sorrow, and Suicide was released and distributed by Catapult music.

1. All I See (The Bridge)
2. I Wish
3. Denied

In 2014, Larshus reunited with longtime friend N. Sanity. N. Sanity takes on guitars with Larshus. This collaboration produced the self-released full-length CD, Invoked with Passion and Pain, on April 25, 2015.

  1. As Flames Ignite
  2. A Caress of Stars
  3. Patterns in the Chaos
  4. She Said Forever
  5. No Hope for Tomorrow
  6. Apparitions of the Sky
  7. Regrets
  8. Dream Dimension
  9. In the Cosmic Laboratory

In January of 2017, My Life’s Despair signed with Ancient Mythos Entertainment. And in April of 2017, there was a follow up to Invoked. The single and official video, Hail Sorrow, was released on April 13, 2017.

  1. Hail Sorrow

Since then, a full album has been recorded entitled To Death I Turn, but the band essentially went on hiatus since the pandemic and hasn’t finished the album. Larshus got married and wrote a book, one day he will return to finish the album.